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SPOILERS. Need to get this off my chest before Cam gets home (persuading him it was awesome so now we have to share the PC: SMART MOVE)

Note: I'm still playing, so please don't spoil me! Anything in Act 1 should be safe, unless it involves Carver or Sebastian (since I didn't play a mage and haven't downloaded the DLC)
( Really, spoilers, though they're pretty vague )

Spoiler free advice:

1)Be careful clicking the dialogue options marked with a "love heart" if you want to avoid having sex with and/or rejecting that person later.
2)If someone gets annoyed at your opinions when a particular topic comes up, keep them out of your party on missions involving that subject :D
3) See the title.

I am having a very weird out of spoons day: it is easier to write and create things than consume them. When I try surfing the internet my brain slides off the page and I find myself staring into space, dizzy. (Proofreading this post was tricky, but I managed, yay me)

So! An incoherent ramble, lucky you guys, huh.
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This is something I find the need to refer to sometimes in conversations about other things, and having it in one place will hopefully help me avoid being all tl;dr elsewhere. It's a total ramble, sorry (This is like draft 4, I think using the creative part of brain to think about creativity causes a short circuit or something)
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Just got home from Swancon, it was awesome, but..the server is being buggy! It may be on it's last legs! DON'T GO, INTERNET, I ONLY JUST GOT YOU BACK!!! (Well, properly, anyway, it was not fun surfing on a teeny laptop with none of my bookmarks etc)

Wooo, I am sleepy.

I have several choices for eating bread and they all make me feel sick in different ways, it's very annoying.

They are:

• Don't eat bread. I get intense bread cravings (bizarre but true)
  
• Make my own rye bread. All the cooking and cleaning uses up too many spoons.
  
• Eat crappy commercial rye bread. The soy flour sets off my intolerances.
  
• Eat good quality rye bread, get reflux from the sourness.
  
• Eat any other sort of non-white bread, get indigestion (This makes no sense! I can eat vitabrits but not wholemeal bread??)
  
• Eat white bread, have body complain at oversimplicity of the carbohydrates.
  

So I alternate and grumble :/

(For those who aren't aware, ACOS is A Circle of Stars, a fantasy webcomic I wrote slowly but regularly for several years before it petered out and went on long term hiatus)

So I was wondering where all this inspiration to write Dragon Age fic was coming from, and I realised the setting was giving me a chance to use all these half finished fantasy ideas that have been knocking around my brain for years, including some from ACOS.

And I thought about why I don't feel able to use that creative energy/those ideas with ACOS (I had been thinking "Because I'm sick!" but I'm beginning to think the correlation is mostly coincidence), and comparing how differently I felt about the two settings made me realise just how much I've written myself into a corner.
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I've been feeling pretty crappy recently, not so bad I can't manage every day stuff but I haven't felt up to deep thinky stuff. It didn't help that the "Turkey Mince" I got from Coles turned out to be "turkey based meat like product" and disagreed with me.

Saw "Ponyo" with oliverm and distantcam today. VERY cute vague-retelling of "The Little Mermaid". Consists mostly of long scenes of adorableness interspersed with brief, intense, confusing exposition but once I realised that was what I was in for I really enjoyed it.

I've been trying to make myself rest, and have found long cheerful fic the most efficient method. To this end I have been going through the top "fic" bookmarks on delicious, it's been...interesting. Way too much slash and SGA.

There was something else I was going to say but my brain has melted.

A couple of people have expressed concern/confusion due to my lack of health updates, so a summary.

Physically, I am much the same as I was at the end of last year. I got a bit worse after working earlier this year but seem to be settling back.

I'm in a very different psychological place, though, and that make a remarkable amount of difference. The last year has been a slow incredibly painful process of coming to terms with giving up my career and my old life and getting my head around how sick I am.
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So first, a month or two ago, I broke Cam's laptop (I spilled water on it in just the right way so that it looked like none had gotten into it but it was actually totally screwed). I felt REALLY bad about it, and thus reacted as I do to feeling really bad about something eg by talking and thinking about it as little as possible.

Cam got himself a new cheap small Eee PC laptop and an iPhone (he needed a new phone anyway)

And then Cam lost his iPhone. Which (unlike the laptop) was covered by insurance but he's still waiting on the replacement.

And just now? MY laptop has broken. It's been slowly dying for a while but it's gone from "a bit flakey" to "refusing to start for hours on end" so during a brief up-time I transfered across any files I wanted to keep and am now on my desktop machine in a rather unstable position on two chairs (Kira is not impressed. When I'm on the couch she gets a lap! My icon is no longer accurate :( )

ARGH. And of course with me not working any more our finances are WAY tighter than they were, so we can't just go out and buy a new one. Current plan is to buy a large-screen windows laptop (Cam sometimes gets sick of the teeny screen and processing on his Eee, and if I look at a small screen for more than about a minute I get a headache) and share it. But not for a while :(

Oh, and I had insomnia last night so feel all wierd AND a pigeon crapped on my bedsocks. Which I had been watching dryig on the line for a day or two with cold toesies. Luckily I manged to find two clean ones even if they don't match.

Anyway, as previously mentioned, I don't actually want to talk or think about it, I just needed to vent. Supportive comments will probably make me feel worse rather than better because I am odd like that, but if you really want to say something cheering give me a link to something happyfying.

To start you off: Dude watching with the Brontes.

Feeling Oh So Woozy today, which is very boring because I can't concentrate on anything very long and my arms hurt too much for much typing or writing or whatever (I'm all inspired re latest Wedding is Destiny chapter too!) And Dreamwidth is all well and good but I joined the veni vidi vids comm and now I have so many recs I lack the capacity to download them all. (Ok, so that's probably not so worthy of sympathy)

I REALLY want Lim to redo I am/Lamb for Bablyon 5. It will never happen but it would be awesome.

It Depends on what you pay is a Dollhouse vid to a cheery 60s showtune about rape(*). Sums up the creepiness pretty well imo. I haven't seen much of the show but whatever you opinions on how much you think the writing subverts the paradime, the camera clearly complicit.

*looks through my delicious account* So many awesome vids! No energy to rec them all!

(*)Well, not in context but you can't tell that from the lyrics