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alias_sqbrI was going to make this a health filter post but since there's nothing super private/TMI and I've been so quiet lately, I might as well make it public since no better update is likely to come up any time soon.
After reading Mast cell activation syndrome 101 and deciding I fit enough of the symptoms to give it a shot, I decided to try taking one tablet of the antihistimine Ceterizine per day, since I had a box to hand.
And was quickly reminded that the reason I still have a mostly full box is that it makes me VERY SLEEPY. One tablet knocked me out for most of the next day and a half.
Half a tablet isn't so bad. I haven't noticed it helping with my fatigue or even my more obviously immune system related stuff like rashes, but I do feel a bit less anxious?? It might be a coincidence but I'll keep trying for a little while longer, see what happens.
Otherwise things continue much the same. Have been spending all my time making Stardew Valley mods, which is fun, even if they're mostly not very popular. People on the mod site are a lot free-er with the criticism than I've been used to in fandom though, both of the "this is mostly good but these particular images need work" constructive criticism type, and the "DELETE THIS"/homophobic mockery etc type. I am reminding myself that one reason I got into mods was as an escape from expectation and obligation, so not being popular is good. Homophobia is less good but it's only been a few comments, which I deleted, and hopefully that will die down when I'm knocked off the front page of most recent mods.
In general I feel like my emotional responses to things are off, I find myself feeling unenthused about things like food or socialising (like writing blog posts!) which (a) used to reliably make me happy and (b) are kinda important. I'm managing to get by (see: this post) but I don't like the change. I am at least managing to find happiness here and there, mostly making mods, playing with the cats, and reading cheesy romances.
After reading Mast cell activation syndrome 101 and deciding I fit enough of the symptoms to give it a shot, I decided to try taking one tablet of the antihistimine Ceterizine per day, since I had a box to hand.
And was quickly reminded that the reason I still have a mostly full box is that it makes me VERY SLEEPY. One tablet knocked me out for most of the next day and a half.
Half a tablet isn't so bad. I haven't noticed it helping with my fatigue or even my more obviously immune system related stuff like rashes, but I do feel a bit less anxious?? It might be a coincidence but I'll keep trying for a little while longer, see what happens.
Otherwise things continue much the same. Have been spending all my time making Stardew Valley mods, which is fun, even if they're mostly not very popular. People on the mod site are a lot free-er with the criticism than I've been used to in fandom though, both of the "this is mostly good but these particular images need work" constructive criticism type, and the "DELETE THIS"/homophobic mockery etc type. I am reminding myself that one reason I got into mods was as an escape from expectation and obligation, so not being popular is good. Homophobia is less good but it's only been a few comments, which I deleted, and hopefully that will die down when I'm knocked off the front page of most recent mods.
In general I feel like my emotional responses to things are off, I find myself feeling unenthused about things like food or socialising (like writing blog posts!) which (a) used to reliably make me happy and (b) are kinda important. I'm managing to get by (see: this post) but I don't like the change. I am at least managing to find happiness here and there, mostly making mods, playing with the cats, and reading cheesy romances.
