Life update!
Dec. 10th, 2016 06:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alias_sqbrSince I haven't done one for a while and feel like there's stuff I have forgotten to record.
Saw the psychiatrist and he basically said the same thing as my psychologist: he's not an expert on the subject but thinks that I definitely have an anxiety disorder, and if I am on the autism spectrum am not super symptomatic and the symptoms are hard to untangle from my anxiety. Also if I got diagnosed with autism his treatment would be basically be the same anyway. He gave me the name of a local doctor who is an expert, Professor Sergio Starkstein, and said if I want to explore it further he'd be the one to talk to.
Health is otherwise pretty average for me. Have been going out into the sunshine for a little every day for psychological and vitamin D reasons as well as to make my skin a little less vampirey pale-and-burns-in-sunlight. I haven't gotten sunburned yet this summer so that's something I guess?
Mum is doing great, am going to her place for Hanukkah with Cam and my brother and (new!) sister-in-law (and, if he feels up to it, littlest brother).
Dad has bought a large house down near Kwinana for him and littlest brother, he's hoping the extra space will help brother feel less boxed in.
My goals after Disneyland were (a) recover (b) be more actively social (c) work on games. And I have done pretty well on all three!
I went to the Nostalgia Box console museum for the first time last night for the Playup Perth/ Let's Make Games combined Xmas party and had a lovely time. Nostalgia Box is the venue for future Playups (showing off indie games in progress) and is wheelchair accessible and right by the Perth train station so I will definitely have to go back. The new venue for the Level One coworking space is apparently also accessible, my goal for the new year is to make it to that a few times and also get at least one of my games to the next major stage and show it off at a Playup.
I have fallen deeply into the Yuri On Ice squee hole along with a chunk of fandom. IT IS SO CHARMING AND SO QUEER (while just barely dodging network interference at every turn. It's definitely not a pinnacle of canon representation compared to shows with more creative freedom but they are obviously trying their best) If a sweet anime love story about two male figure skaters appeals to you check it out!
Gender continues to be fluid! I am still feeling a bit weird about pronouns, "they" feels a bit too ungendered, 'he' feels too much like being 100% a man, and while 'she' has the advantage of familiarity I associate it with people who still treat me like a bog standard woman. On the plus side noone's been too weird about it when I've come out to them so far. Now that I feel more confident in my fluidity I don't feel as much need to be like TODAY I AM DRESSING LIKE A MAN, though I do have days like that mostly I just like feeling like I have control, and if a dress is the only thing I have clean when I'm not feeling feminine will just think of myself as being dudeley in a dress. It still makes no sense to me WHY I feel this way or why it makes me so much happier, but it does, so.
There's probably other stuff but I guess I can always make another post.
Saw the psychiatrist and he basically said the same thing as my psychologist: he's not an expert on the subject but thinks that I definitely have an anxiety disorder, and if I am on the autism spectrum am not super symptomatic and the symptoms are hard to untangle from my anxiety. Also if I got diagnosed with autism his treatment would be basically be the same anyway. He gave me the name of a local doctor who is an expert, Professor Sergio Starkstein, and said if I want to explore it further he'd be the one to talk to.
Health is otherwise pretty average for me. Have been going out into the sunshine for a little every day for psychological and vitamin D reasons as well as to make my skin a little less vampirey pale-and-burns-in-sunlight. I haven't gotten sunburned yet this summer so that's something I guess?
Mum is doing great, am going to her place for Hanukkah with Cam and my brother and (new!) sister-in-law (and, if he feels up to it, littlest brother).
Dad has bought a large house down near Kwinana for him and littlest brother, he's hoping the extra space will help brother feel less boxed in.
My goals after Disneyland were (a) recover (b) be more actively social (c) work on games. And I have done pretty well on all three!
I went to the Nostalgia Box console museum for the first time last night for the Playup Perth/ Let's Make Games combined Xmas party and had a lovely time. Nostalgia Box is the venue for future Playups (showing off indie games in progress) and is wheelchair accessible and right by the Perth train station so I will definitely have to go back. The new venue for the Level One coworking space is apparently also accessible, my goal for the new year is to make it to that a few times and also get at least one of my games to the next major stage and show it off at a Playup.
I have fallen deeply into the Yuri On Ice squee hole along with a chunk of fandom. IT IS SO CHARMING AND SO QUEER (while just barely dodging network interference at every turn. It's definitely not a pinnacle of canon representation compared to shows with more creative freedom but they are obviously trying their best) If a sweet anime love story about two male figure skaters appeals to you check it out!
Gender continues to be fluid! I am still feeling a bit weird about pronouns, "they" feels a bit too ungendered, 'he' feels too much like being 100% a man, and while 'she' has the advantage of familiarity I associate it with people who still treat me like a bog standard woman. On the plus side noone's been too weird about it when I've come out to them so far. Now that I feel more confident in my fluidity I don't feel as much need to be like TODAY I AM DRESSING LIKE A MAN, though I do have days like that mostly I just like feeling like I have control, and if a dress is the only thing I have clean when I'm not feeling feminine will just think of myself as being dudeley in a dress. It still makes no sense to me WHY I feel this way or why it makes me so much happier, but it does, so.
There's probably other stuff but I guess I can always make another post.
