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I've started being able to (a) figure out and (b) tell people when I am having a Bad Words moment that makes it hard to express myself. It's really great! My natural tendency is to just sit there feeling paralysed and guilty and self conscious, having a simple script/phrase I can say without having to come up with something original really helps and half the time helps unblock me enough to think of words to express what I wanted to say in the first place, or at least a gesture towards it, with less worry that the other person will take any simpleness/curtness as rudeness or indifference etc.

I am having a moderately bad word day today, but not to the extent of being totally inarticulate, I just have to express myself more simply (at least it feels simpler in my head, I'm not sure how it comes across from the outside). It's very weird to know I don't always feel this way but still be unable to access the parts of my brain which add humourous/articulate flourishes etc. But I don't need those for this post.

I'm not even that fatigued today, just overwhelmed by a bunch of stressful things I have made the considered decision to avoid thinking about until I have had a few days without new stressful things.

Anyway. Hooray for self knowledge and expression, including expressing my inability to express myself.

(haa...ok, I was able to write this post without too much trouble, but thinking about tags is hurting my brain. This'll do)